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If I ever had the ability to know what someone truly holds in their heart,
I would’ve chosen to know him!!! the very first time he saw me
When he saw me falling for him….
saw my eyes light up like they had finally found home,
saw my cheeks fighting roses for their color,
my unsteady feet, my entire being giving itself away without caution… what did he feel…???

I would’ve chosen to know what crossed his heart, every single time I ran back to him,
again, and again… with more clarity each time,
with love becoming steadier in my footsteps,
with certainty growing where confusion once lived… what did he feel…???

When he saw me breaking into tears out of nowhere, missing him in places where he never even stayed long enough to notice…!!!
when he saw my insecurities, my helplessness,
my love slowly turning into resentment for loving this deep ALONE…?

And most of all… I would’ve chosen to know what he felt…
when I stood there finally and asked him to marry me
I was firm, clear, ready to choose US for life

But why did he choose SILENCE…???
Not a YES, not a NO, not even enough words to let my heart rest…
WHY would someone watch a love this pure, this fearless, this vulnerable and still remain SILENT…???

– RAJINI GAJJELA